So~Bee~Love

Have you ever felt invisible in a room full of people? I'm not talking about in a room full of strangers. I'm referring to a gathering of friends or family. A place that isn't foreign but you don't feel like you belong. For a while now, I have felt that I am an invisible friend. I am the friend that no one sees or hears about but I am there for you most of the time. I am your helping hand or your shoulder to cry on. I sit in silence as you pour out your soul, I am supportive and generous and invest so much time into our friendship.  But - in the world of social media, I usually am not the friend that you go on fun trips with or that you put on your story. I am not the friend that you post about or tag in photos. I am not ungrateful to be your friend but I can't to help but feel unwanted or unappreciated when I am helping you through all of your rough times but there are other people you choose to highlight in your life. The...

I have a confession to make... I have a baby face! Yes, it's true! Probably not what you were expecting me to say but it's true! My youthful looking face coupled with my short stature makes for a perfect excuse for everyone to mistake me for a sixteen-year-old. I am nineteen. Every time someone questions how old I am I feel like Penelope Disick being hit in the face by a car door. Last month I started a new job at a marketing firm as an intern. And as any new job goes, you mingle with as many people as you can to get to know who you'll be working with. During my first week, I went out with some of my colleagues for a walk around the block. Our days usually consist of sitting behind a computer. So going for a walk to stretch our legs sounded like a great idea, plus getting some fresh air is always nice. While we were on our walk small talk sparked and we all were talking just trying to get to know each other. Then one guy turns to me and asks "What grade ar...

January is almost over, it seems like only yesterday was the start of the year. It's interesting how fast and simultaneously slow time seems to pass. This Thursday I want to be very candid with my thoughts and talk about something that has been on my mind lately... I am no longer attending college. As of right now I am taking a semester off of school because this last semester was pretty rough. I suffer from anxiety and depression something that I didn't realize I had until I went to college and I was in an environment where I had to deal with it myself. Understanding these mental illnesses and how they affected me while I  was in school was very difficult just because I was trying to be a student but I had these things that didn't allow me to function properly. In any case, I thought it best to take a break from school. That being said, my initial feeling after making my decision was failure. I was overwhelmed with thoughts of how people would perceive me since ...

It seems like people really enjoy sharing their lives online for the world to see. With social media, it is so easy to post a picture or video of yourself that could potentially reach millions of people. In many respects, I am astonished by the wonders of the Internet and the way that you are able to connect with people across the world that you may not otherwise have been able to interact with. Also, social media is great at connecting people and keeping in touch with people that you may not see that often. Since I graduated high school there are many people that I keep in touch with through social media since I don't get to see them every day. It's great getting to log into an app and see what everyone's up to but there are definitely faults in social media. Personally, I think that social media has evolved into a superficial practice. These days it seems like everyone is trying to show off their lavish life or all the exciting things they do every week. I usuall...

This year has started off very similar to the years before it, full of hope and empty resolutions. At the beginning of each year, I am very optimistic about setting goals and resolutions. I try to be persistent in completing them but to be honest, after January there isn't much momentum left to continue pursuing these expectations. The problem isn't setting up a goal, its the completion of it or rather the lack of accountability to attain them. One I first started making resolutions I would think of outlandish things like exercising and eating healthy. The Lord knows I haven't seen the inside of a gym in months and the only healthy thing my body knows about is lettuce, which is basically solid water so...What I ended up doing was creating more realistic expectations for myself like drink more water and take the stairs instead of the elevator, baby steps. Anyway, this year I am putting more of a focus on myself and my writing. Throughout this past semester I allo...